things that goes cat!!!!!!!!! a story

let me tell you a bit about a cat that was with me for awhile, that cat could walk through hell and still fucking came out smiling. he could be sent to heaven and back down to hell without a broken bone. that cat was a demon.

he loved to love and he gave his all to love. gambled his all on the table while looking lady fortune's dead in the eye pushing his luck for anything. he was invincible. he was stupid. he was stupidly in love. it seemed like forever ago i once saw him. he was here, at the beginning.

i guess he left me. i mean i'd leave myself too looking the direction i'm going right now. i don't blame him. he slowly left when i stopped listening to my heart and when i was deaf, he was gone. time past by, days, months, years even! i shut myself down. letting in some demon inside me and consumed me. the fire you made slowly dimmed with me.

i miss that stupid cat. i fucking miss that klutz.
that kid could swim the ocean and flew skies to get what he wants
that cat could give it all even he'll left with none
how i miss that stupid cat

he'd do whatever to what his heart wishes
that cat would reach the moon if his heart wants
he can't move mountain but that cat would go around a thousand times and a thousand times more

he would listen to his heart

he would nag all day like a little boy that he is
he would ask her to write like a kid wants his bedtime stories
he would laugh at the stupidest thing oh that cheeky kid.

where has he gone to? his life was so.. free
i remember that kid would be jealous for anything stupid
"number one fan my ass!" he would say nonchalantly like kid fighting for the stupidest thing

that kid would cut a whole god damn rose field to bring to his lover. that kid is something.
i could never know what is in that small brain of his. cars? lasagna? toys? will cats eventually rule the the world and made us slaves in about precisely 34 years from now? really... nobody would know.

but he may not like it, he could be mature at times.
where did that stupid cat went where everyone is depending on that klutz. what the fuck are you? the avatar? "when the world needed him the most, he disappeared????"

comeback home safe kid, i miss you. i miss you so much...
when you're back, i promised i'll clean the mess i made and make it like home once more.

pin me down, fuck me and break my heart, love, for its always been there.

fuck my brains out until it hurts for me to think
break my heart until no air could enter my lungs
pin me down until i can't move a single limb

stab my heart like you mean it,
kill me beautifully with your words,
hurt me until all you can hear from me is your name

choke my heart like you would choke my neck
have the intent to kill
and suffocate me with all the lust and the hate

shoot my head with your deadly eyes,
show me those bulletproof body of yours
bleed me wide open

scar me with your hands like you left those love bites
pull my guts out, until its all empty
leave more marks as you did to my soul

pin me down, love.
look into my eyes as you destroy me, love.
so chaotically beautiful, this chaos we created in our heaven